Baby Marigold

My baby in heaven,

Two nights ago I told your dad I wanted to name you Marigold, a beautiful flower if you are a baby girl. I do not have a name yet if you are a baby boy. But I got a good feeling that you are a baby boy. You know I have a hard time looking for baby boy names.

I may not tell the whole world that you are already two and a half months old in my tummy but I told the people that are close to me that you are coming pretty soon and meet your beautiful mommy. Baby I love you with all my heart even if you are as little as a peanut, but of course you are mommy's peanut. 

Do you know baby that I already have plans on your baby shower and you and your kuya Xian's room. Yes baby, you are suppose to share for now with your big brother Xian a room since our house is too small for us. 

Mommy wasn't healthy enough to carry you. I tried hard to eat healthy, sleep early and take my vitamins so you will be healthy too. I didn't even over work my self so you will be safe there but you let go. The night you left mommy, I had a weird dream. I did not know, you gave up already. 

My little peanut, I am so sorry. But I promise, I need to step up and take care of Xian's health too not just mine, even if it means leaving Colorado for good. I am sure daddy Cc learned his lesson already. Daddy Cc was very sad too.

I will take my time in mourning and do it how I want it. I am so hurt that you left but the only consolation I have in my heart is I know you are in heaven. I love you and I will always remember this day.

Forever Love, Your Mom,

  Lou

life is too short not to smile

Wish I am here right now away from stress...
I miss Living alone and just do things in my way with out them stressing me. 
If you are my past, say good bye and leave me in peace, lets move on and forget each other. I do not care what you have now, All I care is me. 
Call me selfish but that is what I call Life. If you messed up, this is the right time to clean up. 
Do not tell me it is for me for I was never yours...... 
If you are my future , you have to trust me. 
I never 

love like this before and I want to be with you for the rest of my life with out questions on what happened, with out bringing the past so we could move on and just think of how can we be a better parents in the future.
Dream... and I will be here to support you.
But if you can not do these...let me go, so I can be home on where I need be, long time ago !

I always believe time is gold and life is too short
Life is too short so let's live to the fullest.
Life is too short and so all I want is to bring friendship and happiness
Life is very short and we do not know when will it end. It can be tomorrow or the next 30 years.
Life is too short so I do not want to stress out and I want to cry less.
Some relationship last, some are just intended to stay just moments.
But for sure I know how to get out, If I started to feel uncomfortable. Why prolonged the agony when there are a lot to choose who can always makes us smile and laugh and dream big and be contented and be who we really are.
Life is too short to carry heavy burdens. Drop it, stop fighting and smile and tell yourself "I can do this".
Trust...trust...trust...and be faithful to the one you love.
I will always be a one-man-woman. So trust me.

so this is love

You came in the wrong place and in the wrong time. I heard your name so long ago and wonder how you look like. I finally met you and my heart skip. Right there and then I know we will create a love story. I am always excited to see you and thank God it is Friday again. I see you again and that makes me happy. Very happy and always hopeful that soon you will see that sparkle in my eyes when ever I look at you.
I know it is not right, but what can I do I am falling for you. So deep. That finally, I found my soul mate.  How beautiful it is to be with you. How great it is to see you smiling back at me. Does not matter if I told you first that I love you. And I am so glad I did. Oh baby, how happy I am that you love me too.
And I choose you. My heart choose you. After all the pains I experienced here in this strange place, the Lord save me a good man. A good man whom I know will love me the way I love him. I love you so much baby. Seeing you smiling at me after a stressful day, makes me feel so refresh again. I am so proud to tell the world I have a guy who will always be there for me.
A year after we first met, we are still can't get enough of each other.We still miss each other. The magic is still there. And I know it will always be there. You took all the pain and night mare and hatred here in my heart. When I remember how I was badly beaten with my former boyfriend and it made me so hate my life, your arms are always there to wrap around me and tell me, it is gonna be alright.
And now we are blessed with a little angel.

And I know you will be a good father. I am so thankful the Lord gave me you after a stormy 2 years with my physically and verbally abusive ex boyfriend. I finally found a smiling sun in you. I finally found you Cesar. I love you and I will always be.

Bottle Caps

Twenty years ago, every bottle cap we saw in the street is like finding a dollar bill in the floor. Before, there's no Ipad, xbox, android or touch screen phone. We play marbles, elastic bands of different colors, chinese garter (elastic) flip-flop games, bottle caps and more that we do not have to spend hundreds of dollars just to enjoy and have fun with friends, although marbles and elastic bands cost us a little over a penny.

On November, me and my friends start collecting bottle caps. On those times a lot of kids like me also gather bottle caps, picking them on the street, in the store or in our school canteen. We used it to make a tambourine or instrument for carolings on coming December. We flattened the bottle caps and make a hole in the middle, insert it to the metal string and we got music. We sing Christmas carols in every house every night. We are not scared of crimes before nor child abduction for that never happen in my good ol' days, two decades ago. Our group, 5 or more of my friends use our hand made instruments out of bottle caps. Some houses especially our neighbors give us a penny or more and some do not. But At the end of the night we go home with money in our pocket. Sometimes, we plan on having a Christmas party and we just save what we made every night till the eve of Christmas. All the money we save we would buy it with food and presents (we mostly wrapped candies) for smaller kids and we have a little party and games in our playground.

And we had the best Christmas ever.

Twenty years after, things change. Technology arrive and everywhere you see is just about Ipad, touch screen, skype, facebook and connecting everywhere in the world thru all the hi tech gadgets. But there is one thing I know that will never change from me is when seeing these bottle caps I pop every day behind my bar in Ameristar Casino, is the feeling I had twenty years ago, the excitement, the happiness the laugh banging these flattened bottle caps to make a music while we sing Christmas Carols in our neighborhood.

Cebu Fashionista - Louvette Aballe Pepito

My name is Louvette Pepito and my hometown is one of the most beautiful place in the Philippines, Cebu. I write blogs for past time and I plan to open my own online store here in my own website www.mycebufashionista.com in the next couple of months. I have a very supportive boyfriend who works in the field of computers. I came here in United States four years ago and was deploy to work in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. I was 24 when I first step in America. My hardships and studies paid off and I now work as a casino bartender in Black Hawk Colorado.
I love to experiment with all my outfits. I like bright colors and neutral. I have been a business minded person while still in the Philippines. Now, I was given a chance to launch my Cebu Fashionista trend very soon. I decided to start blogging and make my own website thru the help of my boyfriend. I have so many ideas for my blog, website and my soon online store that it always gives me inspiration to write positive thoughts and share it to everyone. Believe it or not this all really started when I saw my daughter in skype with her new hair style. Her bangs. It gives me the idea of cutting my bangs one day, days before my golden birthday. And everybody just loves it. And ideas are just coming so fast that I need to start doing something like blogging everything what pops up in my head.

I am just nobody but what I have is I believe in myself that I could carry any new style that is out in the market today. I am not scared to try and bring out the best that I can be. If you feel good on wearing such new trend do not be afraid to share it to everyone. Like I always say in my blog... If you feel good....for sure....you look good.

Fashion Blogger

Being a fashion blogger is a full time job. Just browsing on the internet what is new, what's not, hip and new trends. Finding a good and interesting topic so readers gets to enjoy reading your story.Creating your original style. Experimenting different color for a new kind of outfit and choosing accessories for a certain match needs a lot of time and effort.
But I am a fulltime casino worker. I work 5 to 6 days a week, from 8 to 10 hours a day and all I get to wear is my uniform. A little bit of accessories and very light makeup. Working on my website took longer than I thought. I started from the scratch. From placing the tabs, background, layout, and even the simplest facebook like buttons. Cesar has been a lot of help on putting everything together. Most of the time I sleep late and had to wake up early to get ready to work.
I started blogging and create my website first week of this month. And as of now I have a 370 viewers. It is not that great. But not that bad for a starter. Right now, I am still in the middle of making it great and enjoyable for us ladies. Hopefully more ideas will come to my way. I do not know if the famous Laureen Uy ( breakmystyle ) and Wendy of California ( wendyslookbook ) started this hardships as a starter but I hope I will get better everyday.

Parties and Friends

Your the Man

All legs facing to the left and eyes to the Camera....One...Two...say Sexy

Alma Wells in her blue Hawaiian outfit  and of course the birthday Girl Alma Berhmann with her Pink Dress and Holla Garland 

The Drop Dead Gorgeous Ladies of Colorado

I didn't get the message sooner So I was the only one who was not wearing the Hawaiian Outfit

Thee Guys

From all the travelling I did for more than 2 years I decided to settle down and find a good paying Job in one of the States in America. I went to school for bartending and got a job in the casinos in the hill this place called Black Hawk as a Bartender. My job is really fun and I get to meet a lot of Filipinos who live in this beautiful state. Here are some photos of todays Alma's birthday party.